Watashiwa innovator des

Hi world, it has been 5 days since i on the com.
Only reason why i am using it now is cos i had to print some notes.
Tsk, sat lessons why cant they print the notes for us.
Econs got 32page leh!
WTH!
N they so last min, bkshop close liao then tell me.
TSK!
Wa lao.

Anyway, watashiwa is undergoing CYnization.
OMG Chun Yuan, i finally realise how u felt.
Mugging is enjoyable!
It is so fun, so addictive.
I can mug till 9 everyday!
N i even want more, but the guard v stingy always come chase me.
The more i do the more satisfaction i get.
This is so sadistically thrilling.
Anyway, i am also enjoying my current school life n the way its progressing.
Pls dont release distractors to change it.
Although school sucked, totally sucked on monday.
It got better as the days went on.
N i am very glad i have sebby to go crazy with me everyday if not i have no idea where am i going to release all this shyt pressure.

SP2
Spirit of the Phoenix, the sr name for retainee.
N i am part of SP2, damn it!
Death n reborn, FUNNY AH?!
Lets embark on the yellow-ribbon project!
I am loving it!
Btw, if anyone was wondering if i would regret playing for the whole year last year after spending 5 shitty/godly days repeating in ..jc now....
My ans is still NO!
I do not regret, no at all, not in the past , neither do i now.
Why?
I was numb last year, the prick of the common test, the scratch of the mid-yrs, the cut of the prelims what so ever had no effect on me.
I feel no pain, thus did not study.
Even the stabbing of the A levels did not make me scream.
Although there was the hurt, the kill, but my nerves were dead.
N i think they are still dead.
Seriously, i dont feel pain.
But i cannot explain my thirst for mugging now.
i hunger.
Maybe its because of the shame, the embarrassment of repeat, the fact that i have no close friends in class so i can finally do my solo-kill(cos i never hunt in a pack), or maybe i found the winning formula-ITS SO SIMPLE- , or it may even be my plan(my sub-conscious mind activated it).
Lets talk abt my plan.
Why i play like hell last yr was cos i felt that this was my peak of my youth and prime of my life, thus i should not waste it on doing stuff i dont enjoy.
After this was established, i came to realise that i am going to screw my A lv with this mindset.
But i cant be bothered to care abt what happens aft i fail my A lv.
However, nights or weeks b4 the A level, i finally saw the last bulb blow, the light was gone, there was no way i can board the A train in time, so i went to plan for my next step.
Which was repeat, but at that time as u know my "repeat" was never "school repeat" but "private repeat".
Ok, although this part of the plan was screwed, but i still did repeat.

Let me tell u sth retarded.
When i was sure i had to repeat and A lv was flunk-ed for sure cos i did not do half the math paper and 3/4 of entire chem paper, i knew sth had to change(OMG THIS IS THE KEY) and by hook or by crook i had to OWN since i am now going to spend 3 yrs.
I know this is blank talk n retarded, cos at the end of the day only results matter.
The paper, the alphabets matter, but not dreams.
So lets wait n see.

Why am i talking so much trash?
Gibbering rubbish am i.
Yes i am just an ordinary dumb ass lazy and unmotivated repeat hopeless kid.
Please do not notice me!
Let me hide in shadows and remain un-spotted.
Anyway, the school is dam ass-hole, they stereotype and firmly believe that sluggish repeats will remain sluggish.
Fine!
Throw me into the last class, mix me with all the slugs, monitor me like a prisoner, let me get what i deserve.
I dont care.
These external factors shall not affect me, i am living in my own world, playing my own kiddish game.

The only crap that has an effect on me now is NOISE!
Wa Lao.
My mp3 batt went flat today and my productivity fell by 40%, arrgh!
I must kill more mobs and gain more exp.
I must reach 3th job of cynisation, then i can get the "immune to distraction" skill.
That skill damn imbar can!
It allows you to sit outside the HOD room with 8 ppl in 1 table, 1million ppl talking, 1million ppl walking around, 10million db of noise but u won't feel a thing.
U will still be able to clear 1million joules of work as though you are in the isolation cell i locked myself in now.
Now i am still trying to max the "i should not walk around so much" skill, then i will be able to camp in my cell and slog from after class to 9pm straight.
A whooping 5hrs!

Having said all these, i think the school has done one great thing.
They revamp the sac, no more round tables for talking, i love the isolation cells they have now.
Oh, abt "haeving said that" my math teacher has became my only math teacher for 3 yrs.
Yes i got back the same guy....
And the GREAT language was still intact, so are the great "when i was a studentS" study habit and skills!
skai's dad rox man!
He gave me the freedom to do my own work in class and in lecture, weeee, but of cos must be math la.

Ting dong!
Time to sleep, tmr need to go my favourite place again.
Got sat classes, so FUN LA!
I am a slug.
Hopeless and unfazed, an un-repent slug.
Please believe me.
Cos i dont bother.
Scott signs off.