Filling up the blog

Walling a fireball waiting to shoot.
I cant believe some people are so full of bullshyt.
Trying to act sophisticated, cool and stuff, but how much of that is actually reflected.
Disgusting people living in their own world of disillusion.
Wait a moment.
But who am i to judge?

Its 3pm currently and today is the last day of school for the term.
Yurray, or not it depends.
School or no school, whatever, i dont feel much about it anymore.
I am getting kinda numb to everything around.
There is nothing new, nothing exciting, nothing challenging about school anymore.
Yes, i am cocky i am complacent.
The lack of competition is boring me, yawns.
Can anybody bring me a fight?
Nonetheless, i will still study even when i know i will burn down the helpless ducklings like how i crush an ant.

Ok, i am starting to feel guilty.
Lol.
The more i invoke my inner thoughts the more "human" i feel, i seem to be getting back to reality.
The sudden arrival of the prelims must have given me such a bad scare that i decided to block it.
I see all the stress and anxiety in the eyes of my more competitive peers and i start to fear.
In a bid to reverse such an abrupt change, i blocked out all emotions.
Behave like a stone, oblivious to everything around, be one with the earth.
But to think rationally, now is not the time to panic.
I think those guys have gone crazy under the stress.
Rather, we should behave normally like we had always been.
Whats there to be scared about when the As and Bs amass in our backyards like heap of leaves.
On a side note, issint it amusing to see how those top scorers/overachievers are getting all hyped up over the impending prelims while the bottom lot are simply nonchalant about it.
What an ironical scene.

This question had been posed to me a couple of time over the week.
What is your target/aim for the prelims?
I thought about it and replied with superficial, standard answers.
Why?
Cos i am shy to reveal, i dont wanna give false hope, dont wanna be disappointed, the list goes on.
But to think about it.
Who cares what my aims are, who cares what my targets are?
In the end, i will still win u.
I find that i have reach this stage where getting ABC is no long a distant dream which is unattainable.
Rather, it comes by like water.
So my current target is no longer for the Ace...
Rather, it is to pawn ur arse all of you.
This sound evil, hahaha.
But issint this similar, somewhat like a synonym to the much goody goody motivational quote "To do the best, or to strive for the best"?
Just that my version sounds more sinister and i like it.

Before i end my bullocks, i would like the comment about the thanksgiving concert which took place last friday evening.
It has been 3 years since the this idea of a thanksgiving concert was introduced.
Well, this is also my third year in the college.
Having seen all 3 concerts, i honestly felt that this was the worst of the three.
It was a last minute effort and i guess anyone could tell.
To me it felt like, "lets do it because we have to do it, no ideas, last min, so follow what was done the previous years lor".
Even so, the adaptation was poorly presented.
The storyline sucks especially and i missed the Austin power and Star Wars we had.
On top of that, i felt that the floor wasnt as passionate one.
I feel that this batch are a very self-centered bunch who cares only about merry making and enjoying thyself.
They expect people to do things for them and takes everything for granted.
Another observation is that they are frantically into this idea of self-deception and disillusion.
They think they are very good, very smart just because there are others worst than them.
Whatever la hor, the more of these the better for me, i can just ride over them and get elevated.
They dont realise how much the school had done for them and keep lamenting, complaining, finding fault and all sorts of rubbish at the school's policies.
Wake up! The only reason why is there a need for such a rigorous curriculum plan is cause you/we basically all suck. period.
And we need these extra extra stuff to put us on a level playing field.
Furthermore, after all the school had done to improve the environment, make sr a more vibrant place, blah blah blah, and being at the receiving end of it these people cant even donate a bit to the school.

I look around and i see people carrying branded bags, wearing branded shoes, having the latest handphones, mp3; changing them every now and then...
And i ask myself, R they poor?
And from what i see its the richest(or at least they show they are) that are the most stingy or uncooperative when it comes to money matters.
2 years ago i didnt get to enjoy the revamp "study" nor the new library, so did the students then.
But they contributed to see, to envision a change.
Currently, those that are enjoying these changes without paying a single cent for it dont even want to give a token.
What more can i say.
It was said that the mid-yr result had improved by a few points as compared to last year.
Immediately, students rejoiced as if they had truly improved.
I wonder how many would have seen only a single digit if not for their project work.
Have they considered the difference in pw grades this year and the previous before comparing the grades?
If so, how much then have the real 3H2 1H1 and gp grades improved?
Its either none or it has got worst.
Its not me alone making such comments, teachers i spoke too also felt the same about this batch.
They are not better than "my" batch.

On another note, i am also getting irritated by people who openly complains and try all means to skip or avoid forced consultations.
I feel that these people shouldn't even deserve the chance for the consultations.
Here they are having the privilege of having consultations piroritised for them, yet they are trying their best to beat the system.
Bloody hell, i dont even have a free slot at all because of these forced consultations.
I used to be about to easily book a slot in term 2, but now i cant even find an empty slot.
They dont even realise how fortunate they are.

Having said my peace, i would also like to acknowledge that i am able to draw parallel to the attitudes i mentioned above.
For i was in a similar state last year, i am able to very well feel and understand the above state of mentality.
Whatever i said was based on my general observation and it targets no one in particular, whether one agrees with what i said or not is subjected to one discrepancy.
Who am i to judge?
Who am i to dictate how should one behave like a student?
Who am i to critise?
I am just a jc3 repeat.
Dont bother about me.
I am just a noob cake making noise.
People decide how they want to live their lives and its a good thing.
Enjoy freedom, do as one deem fit.

Scott wants to play sports, he wants to exercise.
Please grant him this wish for he is getting fatter by the day.
But the prelims are round the corner, sigh.
Study hard, play hard.
Scott signs off.