Army Army

People are going to army.
Hai...
The forgotten feeling bites.
"i am left behind"
I laughed at myself.
I was supposed to enlist tmr,
i was supposed to get all emo and hyped up tonight in anticipation for total conformity.
BUT.
hai.
Looks like the happy times i had in school had left me in a state of ignorant bliss.
I actually had forgotten that a decision of mine had brought me back by 1 whole year.
HAHA, what a joke i am.
School is soooo fun....
Just an excuse to numb the cruel reality.
cw the ostrich finds a hole to hide his head, deceiving himself in the face of danger.

Wa, this is pissing me off.
The shithole i share my room with speaks and behave like a total retarded, barbaric lame ass.
Why do i even have to live with such an ass?
Hey!
I just had a revelation.
There is actually an even bigger self-deceiver living with me.
One that constantly intoxicates himself with socially undesirable goods, mix with lesser "friends" and boasting about infamous accomplishments.
What a great way to forget about one's pathetic life.

Wth am i ranting?
I must learn to shut up.
Anyway good luck to people who are enlisting soon.
11 apr, i was suppose to go tekong with 4 others.
Yy, rs, bran and ming quan.
But looks like this "gathering" wasn't going to come true.
At least for me, for i missed the boat.
To the 4 of u, dont give up, stay safe and all the best.
(i still feel that i am a joke)

Well, tmr is going to be a great day.
For i shall be going to the place i tell myself i love.
Today was a great day too.
Had soccer in the morning followed by "qing ming" session in the noon with my parents.
Abt "qing ming", it was my debut session is 18 years.
yes, what an ungrateful ass i am.
Anyway, there is also loads of mixed thoughts as i saw the graves and stuff.
But, i shall not say much here.
Ok, then finally i went for dinner at manhatten with linz and ber.
The flaming prawns were iconic!
Then after dinner, wanted to watch a movie but our hectic lives did not allow.
=(, i having been dying to watch a movie for like eons ago(mugging has turned me into a absurd nerd).
However.
All in all, the day still had been great.
It was certainly a GOOD friday, and i am not sarcastic abt this.

For a better tmr,
Scott signs off.